I'm not a poet. I'm not a good shepherd of my words. I'm not very much of anything. Today I hurt, and I'm not sure exactly how God works, but I am being reminded of how he doesn't.
Look pal-life isn't always the greatest, people can be the worst, and that's totally fine. Let's burn our tongues on bitter coffee and get over it/through it together. We as a people are broken by ourselves, but there's hope. Let's seek it together, shall we?
I don't know, maybe, I mean I guess, sure. A year? I made it a year? I made it a year. Let's give it a go.
This is a short post because I'm currently avoiding sleep, but to some up the point of this post - I am legitimately doing anything to avoid doing what I need to be doing.
So, I'm still alive, still eating terrible, and not exercising regularly. I haven't dropped out just yet, I thought about it and then didn't know what I would do instead... so I'm still here, and I'm stressed AF. Lets rant.
On midterms and the holidays: I want to hide under the sheets, take a ten year long nap, and wake up in a foreign country to the smells of espresso and an all expenses paid vacation. Unfortunately, I am aware that this is not going to happen and that is where I am having the hardest time coping.
Imagine - You've got a full tank of gas (half a tank, same thing), an open road, and a kickin' playlist, the entire world is dancing, calling out to be explored, and you have no money. This. Is. College. (and I'm doing everything my budget of quarters and dimes in the couch allows)
If you're in college, I don't really have to tell you that college is lonely because you already know. If you aren't in college, let me just say that you can mentally prepare all you want - but know that you will still feel lonely at some point. I'll admit that I've been here for …
Okay, so A&M is beautiful... so are it's students. Here's my tale of how a peaceful walk with a Corp Escort went awry...
I'm no Destiny's Child, but I am a survivor... of the first week of my college education/experience. *queues up Survivor and listens on repeat while writing the following*